something i put up on my tumblr a while back about hayley.

never have i been so grateful for you. all these years i have spent thinking i have been the one that made our friendship work. i am so sorry. i now know how much i have and always have needed you. i know where your loyalty lies, and you have selflessly stood beside me every step of my life up to this moment. and in this transition, i have taken and am taking a new and terrifying step forward, i look to the left and then to the right, resting my fearful eyes on you. i sigh. i can breathe again, if even but for a moment. now i know what it feels like to have the only comfort in your life be your friends. to look to them and find your missing link. to find the human comfort you were looking for. i can look around a room and find rest if i know you are there with me. because you understand. you know what i feel because you know my emotions like no one else. thank you. thank you for standing beside me. for knowing me. for not asking questions. i love you more than you will ever know.